After 2 months…
Next week, on 4th of July will be 2 months I’ve been working in MQA. Everything seems smooth to me. At least, I’ve realized, I’ve been longing for this position for a long time…. I want this, and i have to do this sincerely. For the first month, i struggle to coop with the work load and the nature of my work. Honestly I don’t mingle much with my colleaque. Not because I’m sombong or what, but i just trying to get away from hearing any grapevine. Although i’m missing the hectic in RMC, how I used to yell jokingly to Kak Nojie, but I think deeply enough to do that attitude in MQA. I cant show them my other side of me, the ‘happy’ me coz i think that will make myself cross the line of profesionallisme. I’ve to mantain it, though deep down, i’m lonely.
Hmm…..This week is a tiresome week. Starting from monday i have to attend a whole day meeting, with a very unfocused mind coz i’ve thinking of plenty or many things to be settle, then my boss gave a quote about me to our big boss. “The New girl is a fast learner, efficient and a bit sharp”. Ok, boss. I’m really happy and aprreciate you compliment, however it freaking me out. I’m not used of compliment, only criticism. I remember in my old work place, someone, superior but i didn’t accept him/her as my bosses. Just a superior. Him/her always criticized me, and never satisfy with my work. Even I’m trying my best to avoid mistakes, but they will surely try to find it, and then when they cant find anything, they will say, “this is not what we discussed it”, and i have to do it all over again. What the hell?????
I’m hurt and their words are my trauma. Dang!!!
Here, i can feel that my efficiency while i was a student came back. The work style is similar. I’ve been more focused and i will make sure that all my works done and done it well. Although there s a few mistakes done due to my carelessness, but I really appreciate that all my bosses and colleaque do taught me well. My department are running out of staff, due to our burden but we try to make it as perfect as it can be.
Thank you god, for this oppurtunity that you have given me and thank you once again for granting my wish. Alhamdulillah.
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