Engagement….
Its been a while that I haven’t wrote anything here. Lack of idea plus quite bz for my engagement preparation. Tired, exhausted, tense but finally relieved. Though deep within my heart, something creepy came out, but i try to ignore it. Trauma, that’s the real reason. And have to let go the past… However, I hope that the decision that i’ve made is the right choice. Both my parents surely know the best for me. However, leaving behind my own feelings is the painful thing that i have to face….
Today, is the 2nd day that i’ve been somebody’s fiance. Ermm… Life changes. Been teased by most of my officemates. And after a few chat with a ‘friend’, i’ve overcome the creepy feelings. I have to. A two years of waiting, now seems to be worth it. Though he did not tell me anything certain before, but his decision and suprises, makes me feel appreciated. i have to appreciate what path that he took for me. Ermm..I will try to give my heart to him, for the fullest. hopefully i will have no doubt to him anymore.
I know, in this cruel world, nothing would be certain. Today he would say he loves you, but tomorrow, who knows. I wouldn’t dare to take the risk actually, coz i’ve used to get a deep cut in my heart, but he now try to prove to me that i’m the only one. Thanx my heart, coz you are committed and serious. i really hope that you would be my last and I would be your one and only lover. Hope Allah would bless our sincerity and love. As long as I have those rings in my fingers, I would always remember your love to me. Thank you….
I’m sorry friend, coz i have make you sad. I never wish to do that to you. I just hope that you could gain your happiness and we will always be a beloved friend.
