This morning, came to work with a weird feeling…..A lonely feeling. Dunno why but that’s what i feel. I’m missing someone but i dunno who. Might be because i dreamed of my bro, niezam last night. have a few chat this morning with him. But still, this feeling inside my heart. Which i hate the most. I want to live with myself, but still i cant. In this age, i need somebody that i really can rely on. there’s somebody that volunteer to be my place to rely but still, i’m scared. I am afraid that that place i hold will fall down and again, i ‘tersungkur & tergolek’. Really hate it…. Hope that the place will last forever. Though i cant put too much hope to it. To much to comprehend. I am really tired….. ;-(
The door opened… I enter the villa, leaving her behind. My guy, who just stood watching our drama two minutes ago silently follow behind me. Eyes seems watching me, not believing that i would come. I’ve told them that i don’t want to but after a deep think, i think i should come. I should see the faces that used to make my life miserable. Slowly, i pulled my guy beside me and i cling to him like leech.
"Don’t anybody want to greet me?" I asked them. The hall seems quiet, everybody seems very suprised and i am very satisfied. I know that they didn’t want me to come instead. But here i am, standing infrot them and ready to take my revenge. I doubt, in a week time, i would make their life miserable and they will face their worst nightmare………….!!!
To be continued……….. (If i do have the idea)
"Take your dirty hand from me…..you filthy bitch," pushed her off before she even get near to hug me. She fell down, her face turned pale, seems suprise of my sudden act. I dont even bother what her feeling at that time. I just don’t care. She should realised that i would never ever forgive her for what she have done to me for the rest of my life. And she should know the consequences. Because of her, my life has been miserable. She took away all my happiness by betraying me.
The party nearly begun. Both of us just stare at each other before our friends came to greet us. I’m still standing in front of the entrance of the villa, thinking if i should kicked her off and she still sitting in disbelief. Not believing that i’ve already know the betrayal years ago. Knowing the truth and filling my heart with anger and hatred. Not believing that i’m not the naive, stupid and easily been dumb person as she knows years ago. The women standing in front of her now is an arrogant, harsh and cruel person that she don’t even know. Now She know that for me, the sweet memory that both of us used to spend together before she betray and burned me deep into the ground is one of the memory that i have forgotten and throw it away into the dust. The truth is, that is the memory have to be forgotten as i never need her as one of my best friend.
"We’re strangers now. So, don’t ever dare to talk to me or hang with me like a leech as you used to. I don’t want myself gets dirty…" Tears filled her eyes, as i have my words. Leaving her behind, I enter the villa, smiling. For me, past is past but her sin is really unforgiveable. I don’t care bout her and i just don’t want to know her anymore. So, the memory between us been wiped off from me. We’re strangers…….
1. A successful man is one who makes more money than his wife can spend.
A successful woman is one who can find such a man.
2. Men wake up as good-looking as when they went to bed.
Women somehow deteriorate during the night.
3. A man will pay $2 for a $1 item he wants .
A woman will pay $1 for a $2 item that she doesn’t want.
4. A woman marries a man expecting he will change, but he doesn’t.
A man marries a woman expecting that she won’t change, and she does.
5. There are two times when a man doesn’t understand a woman- before and after marriage .
6. A woman worries about the future until she gets a husband.
A man never worries about the future until he gets a wife.
7. To be happy with a man, you must understand him a lot and love him a little.
To be happy with a woman, you must love her a lot and not try to understand her at all.
8. Any married man should forget his mistakes.
There’s no use in two people remembering the same thing!
9. A woman has the last word in any argument.
Anything a man says after that is the beginning of a new argument.
10.Women look at a wedding as the beginning of romance, while men look at a wedding as the ending of romance.
P/S : sekadar untuk renungan dan suka2. Tiada kaitan antara hidup atau mati.
Antara dendam dan benci, antara sayang dan kasih, antara cinta dan suka, masing-masing ada perbezaannya. Maksud yang hampir sama, namun berbeza pengertiaan. Seringkali disalah tafsir, menyebabkan adakala diri dilanda kontroversi.
Mengapa perlu ada kasih jika ianya tidak diketahui? Mengapa perlu timbul sayang andai diri tidak dihargai?Mengapa perlu kasih andai tidak pernah disedari? Berertikah cinta andai rindu itutidak berbalas? Jangan hingga benci yang bertapak di hati bertukar menjadi dendam, hingga kemaafan sukar untuk digenggam…..
Hidup ini, tidak pernah adil jika kita mengatakannya ianya tidak adil.. Andai kenangan lalu itu teramat perit dan pahit, itulah yang akan membentuk diri di masa hadapan…Tabah dan keras hati. Namun, andai ada luka yang dalam hingga parutnya tidak akan pudar, jangan disalahkan org yang terluka kiranya dendam yang terpendam apinya takkan pernah padam…
