Unforgiven……..

Hi there…hope all of you are in good condition. Today is quite a boring day…Seems that every one in my office is bored. Most of the HOD is taking their leave, leaving us to mind just our own business. Hey, its quite bored coz i’ve finished my analysis….

Ermm….Last week, me and one of my former classmates having a chat in the ym…the conversation makes me quite distracted,actually…and all those sad and creepy things while i’m in SMTT just popped up in my head. Hey, its been my nightmare for me since ages. It nearly 8 years i’d leave the school, but the memory is still stuck in my head…and its killing me. The hatred, anger and all those bad thing is inside me. Surely, I just cant ignore it, and I can’t forgive the girl who makes me suffer…and her friends….

Someone asked me, is my brotherhood in Kembara is real? Do they really can help me while i’m in trouble? My answer is….not all in Kembara really know what is brotherhood means, but they always can be rely on…And i really proud with them…At least, they have the passion, and know what is teamwork means. Hey, i also have some friends…true friends…which it is hard to find while in SMTT….I’ve know aie, dedek, all my sisters (ila,sasa,dil) since year 2000, and they are very helpful, and know what is the meaning of friendship…And the most important thing…they will not BETRAY our friendship.

So, pal….(especially to all ex-SMTT’s PKA 2 98-99), just think back what is meaning of friendship, what we have done….and what will happen for future. Coz life is like a wheel, we wouldn’t know what will hit us after this…Then you will realise what we have done wrong in the past. I regretted for my whole life that i’ve ever know you all(excluded linda,ruza,dieja and some guys). But that just for few people, not all….Still, that is my worst mistakes that i’ve ever made in my life.

Hope that all of you will have wonderful life but what they have done is very unforgiven.

Ironic isn’t it??

People are weird…. They always think that they are not a typical type, either a girl or a guy…But actually they didn’t realise they are. They sometimes do the same thing, same mistakes that others done. And sometimes even their behavior are the same, but they still claim that they are not typical. Actually it is synical.

I like to analyse people….People who close to me…whom I just know them, and even that I don’t even remember their names. I don’t like to judge, but I like to analyse. I ain’t perfect person, so, I look to others, to know what i’ve done wrong, and to make things better…..

Man, always said that they will protect the one that they love…That is before they get the girl…but, in the end, they are the one who hurt the girls’ back. Either physically, or mentally…Girls….On the other hand, said they only care for themselves, but in the end, when they meet the person that they really love…They could be as loyal as a dog (sorry, no offence. It just a synonym). They would take care about the man they love even though it will make her suffer, hurt her back…Isn’t that ironic…

So, whoever claimed that they are not typical, actually you are..Just you youself didn’t realise it…..But, there are some people are really not typical, though sometimes they are also the same…..  (there is a person that not a typical type…really…A guy that Iove very much!!!)

I’m bored!!!

Holla…Lamanyer x update blog ni….. Sekarang ni aku kat tempat kejer…malas nak kuar lunch. Agak mengantuk ler… Bulan ni, genap 10 tahun Alang pergi, tapi aku rasa cam dah lali. Mungkin dah ader ’seseorang’ yang mengubat hati ni. Bukan aku x pernah mimpikan dier, tapi aku dah lali sumer tu. Pengubat hati….Susah nak cakap pasal ni, dan susah nak letak harapan tinggi. Aku takut tersungkur lagi. Biarlah masa menentukan…

Kejer baru ni ok…Just kadang-kadang buat aku ngantuk. Banyak sangat nombor. Dahla aku tak suka maths. Tapi still quite ok and more relax..Tak macam masa kat Parkson, hustle bustle and too much silly rules to be followed. Dengan orang-orang yang menyakitkan hati. Kat Card Comm,everything smooth. I’m just mind my own business. Don’t mind others.

Kay, to all my friends…wish all of you good luck in ur life. I’m going to government interview next tuesday, so wish me luck. See you all.

Gunung Datuk

Hmm….aku tak sambung lagi kisah di Gunung Datuk tu. Nak dijadikan cerita, aku boleh kena tinggal dengan cikgu. Time tu aku dah sampai shah alam. Sabor jela. Mengamuk aku. Melayang jugakla duit dalam RM50. Naik komuter sampai seremban, amik bas pegi Kota, dan pengalaman paling tak dapat dilupa, jalan kaki dari kota masuk ke Gunung Datuk. Nasib baik sampai Nyamor, ada budak tumpangkan. Memang survival sungguh. Penat giler. Sampai2, adik-adik aku mengadu macam-macam. Dengan GA pun, tapi aku dah tak larat, nasib baik ada orang lama, walaupun dia tak campur lansung pentadbiran, tapi dia banyak tolong aku. Itu yang buat aku terharu. Aku pening tengok adik-adik, cuma so far, diaorang dah lebih teratur. Terutama GA, aku tengok dia pun dah pandai handle program. OK la tu.Happy aku. Tapi dalam banyak pahitnye….Aku paling puas sebab akhirnya aku dah sampai puncak Gunung Datuk tu. Permandangan atas tu cantik sangat!!!Rasa macam nak pegi lagi (memang pun!)Anyway, citer memang panjang, yang lain, biarlah aku simpan sorang!!! Tahniah kepada komander-komander Kembara sebab masing-masing dah matang dalam handle program.Gambate!!!